In recent times, I am discovering how I have allowed fear become a part of me.
No one intends to be fearful about anything but if care is not taken, it can become such a stronghold.
I am in a new and serious relationship and while I absolutely love being in love, disagreements scare me.
I know it is normal for 2 people coming from different worlds to butt heads, but I realized that because of past experiences, my first instinct in the face of a disagreement is to run.
I used to be one of those people who believed that its not the fights that matter, its the ability to talk through it and be better after but I don’t know if I still believe that.
The fear of going through the hurt and pain I had felt before is hindering me from really fighting for the relationship I care about. I often tell myself that I would rather be single than be vulnerable. Of course, I don’t want to be single…I want to get married and have a family.
Thank God for the word of God that speaks truths to our hearts. God has not given me a spirit of fear but of love, power and sound mind. There is victory once there is revelation. So instead of allowing myself to be handicapped by my fears at the expense of enjoying and fighting for what I love, I am taking hold of the victory I have and taking control of those experiences. I will only choose to learn from them and not be directed by them.